On the 20th, when I weighed myself, the wii fit told me that I had gained 1.8 pounds. I was actually super excited, because the week before it had told me I had gained somewhere around 4 pounds.
On the 13th of August, when I stepped on the scale, it said +4, told me I was obese again, and I panicked and turned the wii fit off before it even recorded my weight gain. So on the 20th, when I weighed, the wii fit didn't have the knowledge of that weight gain, but I did, so "gaining" 1.8 was actually me losing 2.2 pounds. Make sense?
I'll be honest. I spazzed. I felt like I hadn't gotten anywhere this entire summer with my weight loss, and that I was even heading back up, which is something that I never want to happen. So I didn't tell anyone. I didn't blog about it, didn't tell Justin right away, just completely shut down about what was happening.
Justin and I talked about it quite a bit after I confessed, and then I decided that if I have to kick myself in the ass to keep this going, its going to happen.
This week was only a -0.4 lbs, but its still a minus. I'm still currently trying to figure out how the hell to balance my school schedule with an eating schedule, let along a diet schedule. I'm concerned that because I'm not eating regularly, my body will shut down a little bit and store fat, so I need to make sure I'm not leaving myself ever feeling "starving." Once I find my school routine, I think my eating schedule will fall into place as well.
So this week was -0.4 lbs.
Current weight: 175.3
Next goal? Lets just go with 169. So I need to lose 6.3 lbs to get to my next goal. Very attainable.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Still nothing
Another big zero this week.
I can feel myself getting discouraged. Well, not discouraged, just unmotivated.
How do people sit in cubicles for 5 days a week and not get super fat and lose their minds? This is my third 9 hour desk shift and I feel incredibly fat, lazy, and like I could scream.
I'm going to google "exercises to do at your desk" and see what it gives me. I can probably do some crunches just sitting here. Haha, I'm just so incredibly bored, and if I could, I would love to run out the door and around the field a couple of times and then come and sit back down. Seriously, how to people sit still for this long?
I can get into the rec center next week I think. (The halls open on the 15th, so I'm assuming that's when the let Fall students back in there.) When I get in there, I'm working my ass off. I miss working out so much. I want to run on the track, and use the elliptical.
Last summer I started all of this, and it was so easy for me to lose weight and exercise. This summer, I'm insanely busy with work, and obviously I need to work 50 times harder than I did before to keep this thing going.
I'm not going to hit my goal I set for myself. I realized I haven't made any progress since we left for Kauai in May. Sucks. But its a reality that I accept, and I know I have to kick up my motivation several notches to keep moving in the right direction.
I saw this story not too long ago about how Drew Carey lost 80 pounds. (He looks bomb by the way!) He isn't diabetic anymore, and is super healthy. But he cut all carbs out of his diet, and I honestly don't know if I could (or WANT) to do that.
"No carbs," Carey said. "I have cheated a couple times, but basically no carbs, not even a cracker. No bread at all. No pizza, nothing. No corn, no beans, no starches of any kind. Egg whites in the morning or like, Greek yogurt, cut some fruit."
While I know that works, I've guess I've always taken the Weight Watchers outlook on life in that you don't have to cut out any major food groups to be successful at weight loss. (And that its probably not healthy to do so either...hello, food pyramid ring a bell?) I figure if I stopped eating carbs right now, I could probably be at my goal weight in a matter of months. But then what do I do after that? What will happen if I start eating carbs again? Part of my acceptance of the fact that I have to diet my whole life was that I wouldn't torture myself in the process. While I want to be healthier and skinnier, I always promised myself I wouldn't fall into any of the fad diets, even if they promised short-term goal success.
So for now at least, I'm just going to concentrate on more exercise and hitting the gym when it opens itself back up to me, and we'll see what happens.
Drew Carey story can be found here!
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
I can feel myself getting discouraged. Well, not discouraged, just unmotivated.
How do people sit in cubicles for 5 days a week and not get super fat and lose their minds? This is my third 9 hour desk shift and I feel incredibly fat, lazy, and like I could scream.
I'm going to google "exercises to do at your desk" and see what it gives me. I can probably do some crunches just sitting here. Haha, I'm just so incredibly bored, and if I could, I would love to run out the door and around the field a couple of times and then come and sit back down. Seriously, how to people sit still for this long?
I can get into the rec center next week I think. (The halls open on the 15th, so I'm assuming that's when the let Fall students back in there.) When I get in there, I'm working my ass off. I miss working out so much. I want to run on the track, and use the elliptical.
Last summer I started all of this, and it was so easy for me to lose weight and exercise. This summer, I'm insanely busy with work, and obviously I need to work 50 times harder than I did before to keep this thing going.
I'm not going to hit my goal I set for myself. I realized I haven't made any progress since we left for Kauai in May. Sucks. But its a reality that I accept, and I know I have to kick up my motivation several notches to keep moving in the right direction.
I saw this story not too long ago about how Drew Carey lost 80 pounds. (He looks bomb by the way!) He isn't diabetic anymore, and is super healthy. But he cut all carbs out of his diet, and I honestly don't know if I could (or WANT) to do that.
"No carbs," Carey said. "I have cheated a couple times, but basically no carbs, not even a cracker. No bread at all. No pizza, nothing. No corn, no beans, no starches of any kind. Egg whites in the morning or like, Greek yogurt, cut some fruit."
While I know that works, I've guess I've always taken the Weight Watchers outlook on life in that you don't have to cut out any major food groups to be successful at weight loss. (And that its probably not healthy to do so either...hello, food pyramid ring a bell?) I figure if I stopped eating carbs right now, I could probably be at my goal weight in a matter of months. But then what do I do after that? What will happen if I start eating carbs again? Part of my acceptance of the fact that I have to diet my whole life was that I wouldn't torture myself in the process. While I want to be healthier and skinnier, I always promised myself I wouldn't fall into any of the fad diets, even if they promised short-term goal success.
So for now at least, I'm just going to concentrate on more exercise and hitting the gym when it opens itself back up to me, and we'll see what happens.
Drew Carey story can be found here!
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
Friday, July 30, 2010
Nada
-/+0
Not exactly the way to start off reaching new goals, but that's okay.
Don't really have much to report this week. Just been working and such.
I do have a delicious recipe that I've made! Well, not really a recipe, but more of slapping some foods together. I've always loved the McDonald's McGriddles, but can never eat one again now that I've looked at the nutrition facts. So, instead, take two pieces of whole wheat toast, put sugar free maple syrup on the faces of each of the bread, cook up egg beaters, and top it off with a couple of slices of turkey bacon. Absolutely delicious! :)
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
Not exactly the way to start off reaching new goals, but that's okay.
Don't really have much to report this week. Just been working and such.
I do have a delicious recipe that I've made! Well, not really a recipe, but more of slapping some foods together. I've always loved the McDonald's McGriddles, but can never eat one again now that I've looked at the nutrition facts. So, instead, take two pieces of whole wheat toast, put sugar free maple syrup on the faces of each of the bread, cook up egg beaters, and top it off with a couple of slices of turkey bacon. Absolutely delicious! :)
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
Thursday, July 22, 2010
New goals
-1.4 pounds!
I lost what I gained last week. Thank goodness.
I weighed this morning because we're leaving for Seattle tonight, so I won't have a chance to weigh again until I get back.
I only splurged once, and that was when I went to see Holly and Aiden off and stayed and had pizza at their place. Other than that, I stayed healthy, didn't eat/sneak any "bad" foods, and even worked some exercise in besides soccer--after I got off work on Sunday Justin and I went for a walk. And we went again on Monday night. I love night walks. :) And we went swimming for a couple of hours on Tuesday before the soccer game.
Heading to Seattle for the weekend--I swear leaving my safe, dieting apartment always derails me. This time I'm taking extra stuff with me. I usually always take my popcorn to snack on, but I have extra bagel thins and half a loaf of bread that is going to go bad unless its gets eaten this weekend anyways, so I'm taking it with me to help keep me on track.
My ultimate goal this week is to still see a negative number on that scale next Friday, despite the trip home for the weekend.
I think I'm going to change my goal at the bottom of my journal entries. I want to be in the 160's before classes start in late August. I know that's a little more broad, but its something that I would love to be. I think smaller goals always helped me before anyways, so we'll say I want to be 168 or lower when classes start on August 23rd.
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
UPDATE: I just got this message from my friend Alecia, and it cracked me up!
"I'm eating a weight watchers meal in London :D"
Then, right after that, I got this message:
"I take my excitement back, it tastes awful. I've never had any in America so I can't compare. But if this is the stuff you've been eating the last year then I envy your discipline and commitment, lol."
:)
I lost what I gained last week. Thank goodness.
I weighed this morning because we're leaving for Seattle tonight, so I won't have a chance to weigh again until I get back.
I only splurged once, and that was when I went to see Holly and Aiden off and stayed and had pizza at their place. Other than that, I stayed healthy, didn't eat/sneak any "bad" foods, and even worked some exercise in besides soccer--after I got off work on Sunday Justin and I went for a walk. And we went again on Monday night. I love night walks. :) And we went swimming for a couple of hours on Tuesday before the soccer game.
Heading to Seattle for the weekend--I swear leaving my safe, dieting apartment always derails me. This time I'm taking extra stuff with me. I usually always take my popcorn to snack on, but I have extra bagel thins and half a loaf of bread that is going to go bad unless its gets eaten this weekend anyways, so I'm taking it with me to help keep me on track.
My ultimate goal this week is to still see a negative number on that scale next Friday, despite the trip home for the weekend.
I think I'm going to change my goal at the bottom of my journal entries. I want to be in the 160's before classes start in late August. I know that's a little more broad, but its something that I would love to be. I think smaller goals always helped me before anyways, so we'll say I want to be 168 or lower when classes start on August 23rd.
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010: 5.9 lbs
UPDATE: I just got this message from my friend Alecia, and it cracked me up!
"I'm eating a weight watchers meal in London :D"
Then, right after that, I got this message:
"I take my excitement back, it tastes awful. I've never had any in America so I can't compare. But if this is the stuff you've been eating the last year then I envy your discipline and commitment, lol."
:)
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Bouncing
+1.3 lbs.
Damn, talk about fluctuating weight loss and gain.
Frustrating. The only thing I can attribute it to is the amount of bread products I've consumed this week. I've had a pretty sour stomach a lot of nights, so I've just been eating bread. It seems to be the only thing that calms my stomach down.
And we went out to the bar after both soccer games and I had probably 2.5 beers each time. While its fun, going out drinking after soccer games kind of cancels out the exercise. :/
I have to go to work now, but for next week, I guess the goal is just to lose this gained weight, and then it will be finish losing the other gained weight. This sucks, I'm not going to lie.
Current weight: 175.3 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 20.2 lbs
Damn, talk about fluctuating weight loss and gain.
Frustrating. The only thing I can attribute it to is the amount of bread products I've consumed this week. I've had a pretty sour stomach a lot of nights, so I've just been eating bread. It seems to be the only thing that calms my stomach down.
And we went out to the bar after both soccer games and I had probably 2.5 beers each time. While its fun, going out drinking after soccer games kind of cancels out the exercise. :/
I have to go to work now, but for next week, I guess the goal is just to lose this gained weight, and then it will be finish losing the other gained weight. This sucks, I'm not going to lie.
Current weight: 175.3 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 20.2 lbs
Friday, July 9, 2010
Are we there yet? :)
-1.6 lbs! woot woot!
As for my goals that I set for myself for this week, I got them done...mostly. The extra exercise outside of soccer ended up being in soccer. After our game was over on Tuesday night, the other team for the next game didn't show up, so I played a second game! :) It hurt so good. Haha.
I didn't get a chance to have a second exercise day. I did go swimming yesterday, but I was also drinking beer, so I feel like that kind of cancels it out. Haha.
And I did lose at least 1.5 of my gained weight! yay!
I'm definitely stepping back on the right path to get this going again. I just need more time to exercise! I work too much. Haha.
I think I'll keep my goals the same for this week. Lose another 1.5 pounds and really work on getting out and getting active again this week.
If I wasn't working late all the time and Justin didn't have so much homework, we could walk again. Maybe I'll have to make us anyways, even if its late.
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 18.9 lbs
As for my goals that I set for myself for this week, I got them done...mostly. The extra exercise outside of soccer ended up being in soccer. After our game was over on Tuesday night, the other team for the next game didn't show up, so I played a second game! :) It hurt so good. Haha.
I didn't get a chance to have a second exercise day. I did go swimming yesterday, but I was also drinking beer, so I feel like that kind of cancels it out. Haha.
And I did lose at least 1.5 of my gained weight! yay!
I'm definitely stepping back on the right path to get this going again. I just need more time to exercise! I work too much. Haha.
I think I'll keep my goals the same for this week. Lose another 1.5 pounds and really work on getting out and getting active again this week.
If I wasn't working late all the time and Justin didn't have so much homework, we could walk again. Maybe I'll have to make us anyways, even if its late.
Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 18.9 lbs
Saturday, July 3, 2010
OYE.
+3.4 lbs. OUCH. But my fault.
I figured I had a little bit of a bounce back from going home and going to Lena's wedding. But usually when I do some damage to myself, after a week or two its gone and I'm back on track. But jeez, how much weight did I gain after my vacation? I probably should have stepped on a scale when I got back to know what I was dealing with.
This is okay...well its not okay. But its doable. Its just a little bit of a set back that I can overcome and continue on my journey. I'm still kind of shocked to be completely honest...every time I glance back up at that number at the top of this entry. Being fat sucks sometimes.
I need to incorporate my own workout routine back into my life. Soccer is okay, but there are too many people on our team, and its not nearly as good of a workout as I thought it would be.
I know I need exercise. I have to choose it for myself though. I have to decide its time to get up off my butt and run.
That will be my goal for next week. I'm going to exercise twice outside of what little exercise I get from soccer. And see where that gets me. Maybe Justin and I just need to start walking again. That was where a majority of my success came from last summer. From the huge amount of walking we did.
Okay, so GOAL for next week: I will have exercised at least 2 days out of the week, and will have lost at least 1.5 pounds of this gained weight.
Current weight: 175.5 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 20.5 lbs
I figured I had a little bit of a bounce back from going home and going to Lena's wedding. But usually when I do some damage to myself, after a week or two its gone and I'm back on track. But jeez, how much weight did I gain after my vacation? I probably should have stepped on a scale when I got back to know what I was dealing with.
This is okay...well its not okay. But its doable. Its just a little bit of a set back that I can overcome and continue on my journey. I'm still kind of shocked to be completely honest...every time I glance back up at that number at the top of this entry. Being fat sucks sometimes.
I need to incorporate my own workout routine back into my life. Soccer is okay, but there are too many people on our team, and its not nearly as good of a workout as I thought it would be.
I know I need exercise. I have to choose it for myself though. I have to decide its time to get up off my butt and run.
That will be my goal for next week. I'm going to exercise twice outside of what little exercise I get from soccer. And see where that gets me. Maybe Justin and I just need to start walking again. That was where a majority of my success came from last summer. From the huge amount of walking we did.
Okay, so GOAL for next week: I will have exercised at least 2 days out of the week, and will have lost at least 1.5 pounds of this gained weight.
Current weight: 175.5 lbs
Weight to lose until 155: 20.5 lbs
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