Still nothing

Another big zero this week.

I can feel myself getting discouraged.  Well, not discouraged, just unmotivated.

How do people sit in cubicles for 5 days a week and not get super fat and lose their minds?  This is my third 9 hour desk shift and I feel incredibly fat, lazy, and like I could scream. 
I'm going to google "exercises to do at your desk" and see what it gives me.  I can probably do some crunches just sitting here.  Haha, I'm just so incredibly bored, and if I could, I would love to run out the door and around the field a couple of times and then come and sit back down.  Seriously, how to people sit still for this long?

I can get into the rec center next week I think.  (The halls open on the 15th, so I'm assuming that's when the let Fall students back in there.)  When I get in there, I'm working my ass off.  I miss working out so much.  I want to run on the track, and use the elliptical. 

Last summer I started all of this, and it was so easy for me to lose weight and exercise.  This summer, I'm insanely busy with work, and obviously I need to work 50 times harder than I did before to keep this thing going. 

I'm not going to hit my goal I set for myself.  I realized I haven't made any progress since we left for Kauai in May.  Sucks.  But its a reality that I accept, and I know I have to kick up my motivation several notches to keep moving in the right direction.

I saw this story not too long ago about how Drew Carey lost 80 pounds.  (He looks bomb by the way!)  He isn't diabetic anymore, and is super healthy.  But he cut all carbs out of his diet, and I honestly don't know if I could (or WANT) to do that. 
"No carbs," Carey said. "I have cheated a couple times, but basically no carbs, not even a cracker. No bread at all. No pizza, nothing. No corn, no beans, no starches of any kind. Egg whites in the morning or like, Greek yogurt, cut some fruit."

While I know that works, I've guess I've always taken the Weight Watchers outlook on life in that you don't have to cut out any major food groups to be successful at weight loss.  (And that its probably not healthy to do so either...hello, food pyramid ring a bell?)  I figure if I stopped eating carbs right now, I could probably be at my goal weight in a matter of months.  But then what do I do after that?  What will happen if I start eating carbs again?  Part of my acceptance of the fact that I have to diet my whole life was that I wouldn't torture myself in the process.  While I want to be healthier and skinnier, I always promised myself I wouldn't fall into any of the fad diets, even if they promised short-term goal success.

So for now at least, I'm just going to concentrate on more exercise and hitting the gym when it opens itself back up to me, and we'll see what happens.

Drew Carey story can be found here!

Current weight: 173.9 lbs
Weight to lose to be 168 by 08/23/2010:  5.9 lbs